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I feel exhausted all day long I see bad dreams almost every night of witches ghosts and murdering someone I forget alot but when I got to gym at 4 pm I have so much energy as I cannot even imagine just this time I come alive and I feel like nothing no emotions I have I feel I am not sad neither I am happy I am just normal no fear no desire nothing just a hollow space I feel to feel I do take alcohol sometimes just there are only times when I feel anxiety when I feel I have been left behind in life and I just want to get out of that feel then I run to trace which my dad takes which was prescribed to him by his doc I feel like I can go insane and harm others and I feel like my body or someone in head asks me to do wrong things like my own subconscious says to do weired things to people and I try to stop it to the utmost overall I feel nothing but not normal for sure I would not even regret If I would die it's like for me it does not matter because I don't feel it I don't feel what death is to me or any emotion how can I retain my emotions doc.

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Dear lybrate-user, You may be suffering from a treatable mental disorder. May be your father is also suffering from the same disorder. One of the symptoms of this disorder is, what psychiatrist call as apathy or lack of emotions. May be you also have an auditory hallucination, someone in head asking you to do wrong things. Please at the earliest consult a psychiatrist and get diagnosed. Treatment may be long, but it is worth to live a better quality of life. But it is better that you don't take your dad's drugs on your own or start alcohol. They may not be proper treatment for your age and the type of work that you do.
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