I am becoming extremely depressed and lonely. I am going thru a rough time and sometimes I wish there was someone there for me whom I could just hug and cry. My mother and father live abroad while I have been studying in india in hostel for past 6 years. Of course my parents love me and care for me but their mindset is different. They provide for me and protect me, they ask about my health and studies and if all is ok? But I can not open up to them because they do not understand my issues. They do not believe in showing physical affection. They think its awkward now that im a grown woman. But deep inside I still a little girl crying out for love care affection and acceptance. I can not have a boyfriend. Dad will definitely disown me. Girls in my hostel are very competitive and I have not found a best or anyone too close although I do have many friends. I feel so low and socially crippled. I can not even make small talk to people anymore without it being awkward. How do I address this need to be loved and accepted that making me restless?