Back in 2013 I lost my elder brother due to cardiac arrest and in 2016 my father due to cancer. They we're there to support me and understand my feelings. After 2013 incident I started to lost my interest in all these daily activities. I don't like to any public places not even my college. I feel like I don't with them anymore. Now I just prefer to stay room that too locked. I'm not that child anymore that I family my wants to be. I don't feel anything like I don't care about anyone just anger and rage are part of me now. Sometimes I like to feel pain so I started to punch on wall so hard that my knuckles hurt for more than a week when I move my hand. I thought cutting myself but I don't have the courage to do it. I want to get over it, and live a normal life like hangout with my friends have gun. Please guide me what should I do?