I fear I will lose my parents within very few days. I had only 5 people, mom dad grandfather and mother and maternal uncle, whom I loved purely and they loved me purely. I didn't get love from any other relatives. I tried loving them, but I didn't get back any (family issues) I lost my grandfather in 2010 and unexpectedly I lost my maternal uncle (who was half of my heart) in 2013. Since then grandma is residing here with us. I have a negative thinking that I suffer from the worst possible lucks. And it's not only just a concept, but it has been proven! I don't have friends, I mean I have friends, but NOT REAL ONES. I am a love failure, ditched. I was also. Wrongly blamed for few things and I lost most of my prestige without a reason. So I just have mom dad and grandma, without whom I cannot imagine my life. I know my grandma will leave us sooner or later, and it's acceptable, because she is more than 70 years old! But I can't control losing my mom and dad. When my uncle died, we went on a holiday previously in that year and the entire year was a happy one until November, when I lost my uncle! We have been happy this year as well, spending a holiday (which is extremely rare for us) previously this year! I feel something bad will happen soon. And I can't afford to lose my parents or mother now! I feel this all day, especially at night! I am Mentally disturbed I have never spoken about this to anyone, neither can I speak about it now.