Dear Doctor, I'm 30 year old male. I started masturbating at age of around 15-16 years of age. I used to do it about 2-3 times a week, some times may 3-4 times as well. I never realized that its bad and never knew about its possible long term side effects. I was good at studies and now, also at work. However, I started realizing the side effects (like weak erection, less libido, thin aged look) about 25-26 years of age. When I read about it online, I was doomed and tried hard to put an end to this habit. Now, I've not masturbated for more than 2 years, but I experience wet dream once a month on average. These 2 years have been very difficult for me. I keep thinking about my past mistakes. My weight is 78 kg and I feel my body never developed into what it should have been. I feel weakness in body. I have been doing regular brisk walking/jogging (4-5 kms) 5 times a week for about a year now. I also feel some pain in my ankles now a days. I'm avoiding marriage proposals as I think my marriage will be a failure and why mess up someone else's life due to my mistakes. I feel its getting to my head and making me stressed and depressed. I want to come out of this and lead a healthy balanced life. Please advice. Thanks.