I am not having sleep in night and also addicted to tobacco chewing in night if I didn't got tobacco or any thing like that feels mad I was having a love affair with a person when I was in +1 and it continued till 12 and I failed in +2 and I rewrite and got passed I went to army to marry her and when I came back she went with my scoundrel friend and am fed up and resigned from army and went to study far for b tec and after 4 months I stopped and came back home not able to concentrate in anything my mood always changed from love anger revenge sad and helpless I feel to kill them and suddenly I feel to forgive and also I was addicted to alcohol to stop thinking about all these and it increased and I stopped alcohol as a result of bike Accident that was due to drunken driving just a narrow escape from death am not able to sleep and if I sleep because of tired also it won't last longer only for 1or two hours and also bad dream now I though only death can cure my problem I was always searching for her Facebook account as I was not able to see her and at last I found her account after 5 years of routine checking and I text her and asked her to block me and at last when I wish her in her birthday she blocked me and now I feel sad I went to consult a psychiatrist in local hospital and after 1 hours of waiting I lost patience and went back without visiting doctors my moods always change suddenly and feels to suicide or kill my enemies who made me like this not able to sleep seeing nigh mare their face.