Heavy forehead blurred eyes intoxication like situation without drinking avoid light live in dark keep close lights during night in light feel dizziness it appears I would be faint Always sad feel like who am I why I am here Fear of death feel could not breath think hospital where I would get oxygen and would save my life I live with my family but feel alone feel something missing My three year old son comes to me I ignore him Restlessness helpless seems my life is out of control what would I do Neither I want to die nor live like this Thought comes I drink alcohol till unconsciousness and do suicide Please help me as I am suffering from chronic liver disease Is this problem related to liver problem or other I lost hope how I would get back in my life.