Hello doc. I M 31 yrs, not happily married lady for 9 years (I think or may be I M ). We live alone because of his job. I don't know what's going on in my life. Ours is a love cum arrange marriage. For some reasons (fear of pain) we haven't have sexual relationship yet. We have a lot n lot n lot of arguments n fights with each other. There is no single moment when we don't argue or fight. He is in railways so remains in Train because of his running duty schedule. He does this so that we have less fights. He drinks a lot. Whenever he is here at home he only drinks n watches TV. I know he has no affair out n he loves me a lot. But he never shows. He abuses me too, shouts on me which I can't bear. Then I also shout n then arguments start. I am also a working lady. On job, I remain happy with my school students n colleague friends. Bt as soon I come home everything changes. We don't spend time with each other at all. We don't talk much except arguments n some daily routine talks like khane me kya banau, Chai banana etc. That's it. I try to save my marriage our relationship but nothing is working out. What should I do I don't know. Fact is this also that we can't live without each other bt we don't live peacefully also. We don't have a normal married life. Consequently, I remain stressed, lost in my thoughts. Suddenly starts crying when I M alone or lost in my thoughts or I watch something emotional on TV or around me. Because we have no kids yet. I hesitate in talking with my parents n other family members as they ask about kids. Which is natural N right on their side. My family n my world has limited to only my school life my work my students. That's it. I want to extend it. I don't know how to make my life natural like other couples. Like discussing about our lives, job future, problems, solutions etc, spend quality time with each other. Which we don't do. Pls suggest what should I do? Pls Help me.