I am 21 years old female. I have been in only 1 relationship wih my guy fr 5 years n he used me n ditched me. I never had sex though. After a year I became friends with a guy and we are best friends n and I lost virginity with him. I love him but hr treats me as friend. I feel depressed hurt and lonely. I smoke a lot. I need help. I cry a lot and feel like getting mad and dying. I need need doctor.