22 year student I always feel guilty for past and try to talk with those people who don't want to talk with me I care each and everyone think for their good if they are my enemies then also But for myself always negative thoughts comes all these things comes in true every time I am always looking back I always cry what bad happened by me the things happen are I lost my MBBS just by 2 mark, in night time in last 4 year 3 to 4 times hardly my hand is on another genital so all the colleagues think I am gay that affect my mind I always in confused what should I do or not I unable to concentrate on my studies or any time of enjoyment I have done Many times my thoughts comes of suicide and always unhappy I always do masturbates once daily I am always in sad mood Please tell me what should I do to get out of all this facts and what should I do to live free and happy life please give me remedy natural means please guide me.`