According to psychiatrist, I am suffering from schizoaffective disorder but I am medically diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder (most recent or current manic) along with grandiose delusions symptoms. What does that mean? Anyway, currently I am experiencing delusions (beliefs that conflict with reality). In the following, I explained reality v/s my illusion. Please relate it like analogy. Reality: 1) from a youtube video, there was someone?s mother named mamta. She discussed the disadvantages of online classes in a crying manner and told not to submit the online assignments through youtube video. She told ?bhaad me janna do? and after that I tore all the papers which I wrote as assignments to upload. And this is the reason I did?t appear for internal exams. 2) I had opt for spiritual counselling to get rid of suicidal thoughts and masturbation addiction. Just before semester 6 theory exams, I had voluntarily dialled the organization number. It was a group call, means in first call, their manager was there. He was from tamil nadu, therefore he does?t knew english language. So he forwarded to another person. So, there was an old lady in the second call, she told me to avoid phone. She then forwarded the call to a man and he gave spiritual advice from the bible and also told to avoid phone. Actually he was trying to say to stay from phone addiction but I altered the meaning of it and then for almost next week I did?t appear for online exams wilfully because in my mind it was there that they were supporting me to stay from phone addiction therefore I was feeling that I am doing a great thing by not giving online exams thus staying away from phone and I got failed in online exam because I was absent for it. 3) I had booked an appointment with a female psychologist (completed her masters) for counselling. So on the third day she told to opt for psychiatric medications (in the label of medicine it is mentioned as drug). Therefore I resisted. Then I booked an appointment with a senior clinical psychologist so at last she told me to opt for psychiatric medications then I agreed to her decision. I then booked an appointment with a clinical psychologist then on the same day, she told me to visit a psychiatrist. And then on the same day I booked an appointment with a male psychiatrist. Then after 2 weeks, I left home saying that I want to get cut my hair therefore I told my parents that I am going to barber shop. My parents got suspicious that suddenly what happened to me. So, they dropped me to the barber shop, so after finishing the hair cut, I immediately went to the medical store and bought the medicines prescribed by the psychiatrist. Meanwhile, my parents were searching for me. My parents searched me, asked barber shop about me, and searched me in sewage thinking I fall down in the sewage. But then I came back to house with medicines in my pocket. Then my parents and my siblings asked me, ?where were you? We were searching you.? then I told them I was busy in helping a person. He wants someone to take care of his suitcase (cloth). He wants to go to home by bike so he needs someone to sit behind the back. So, I sat behind carrying his suitcase so that the suitcase should be ironed (to look good all the time). My parents then told me that in this case, 90% people falls in a trap of drug case. Better avoid next time or say no politely. I did?t give semester 5 practical exams because I gave priority to my life and not exams in the sense to get treatment first. I was taking escitalopram and olanzapine for 46 days for major affective depressive disorder, cluster b personality disorder, mild trichotillomania, adjustment disorder with mixed anxiety and depressed mood, bipolar 1 disorder (most recent or current manic) along with grandiose delusions symptoms (according to the psychiatrist, I believe myself that I am god) and stopped the treatment by tapering as advised by the psychiatrist. 4) I completed the treatment on 18th february 2021 but on 23rd march 2021, relapse of mood disorders occurred and it was high than previous scenario in the sense suicidal thoughts were coming, wants to complete the tasks of blue-whale game. 5) recently I watched crime patrol, so my mind delusions and the dramatized scene of crime patrol getting combined. In the sense, what scene is happening in crime patrol the same thing I believe it like a reality and tell everyone that I also experienced that? for example, in a crime patrol episode, a depressed girl left home so I was getting the same thought that I should also leave house. In the episode, an engineering student left home and join taliban and there the taliban commando telling their students that leave your family and join taliban and then shadi ho jao. So I was also getting inspire by them in the sense I feel that I also did like that and telling everyone that I am a community of taliban member (making my illusion mind like reality) 6) then I made my mind to pray for syria, so then I left my studies and devoted my time in praying for syria. (thus not attending online lecture, didn?t appear for online exams, not submitted assignments and then failed) then I joined a prayer whatsapp group in which all are praying for syria then suddenly the admin of the whatsapp group removed me from the whatsapp. Then I introspect myself that I left education and devoted my time in praying but the admin removed me. So I stood nowhere. Then I watched a crime patrol episode in which an engineering student left studies and joined terrorist because he was emotionally blackmailed but the commando rejected him because he was an indian. So, neither he completed engineering nor gained respect from that person whom he left studies. illusion (what I told to my classmates thinking its reality): 1) through video call, someone?s mother (i don?t know her personally?she told her name is mamta). She brainwashed me in the sense, in a crying way she told that not to give online exams, not to submit assignments. She told, ?bhaad me jaane do?. And after that I tore all the papers which I wrote as assignments to upload. And this is the reason I did?t appear for internal exams. 2) through phone-call (not whatsapp call): just before semester 6 theory exams, I had a phone-call. It was a group call, means in first call, their boss was there. In second call, there was a person (voice was like of an old lady person)?she told to switch off the phone for the next 1 week. And then the third call, the call last for 1 hour. He told me that he is very religious and he altered the meaning of bible verses in his way and told to completely stay away from internet for the next 1 week. In short, in the name of religion they all brainwashed me which made me not to appear for semester 6 theory exams. 3) I don?t know who they were?.but a girl (completed her masters) talked to me very nicely for hours, then later she told me to take drugs but I resisted. Then next day I received a phone call from a lady (she was her team member). For 3 days, the lady was telling to take drugs but I resisted, then on the same day, I received a phone call, there was girl (elder than me) told me to take drugs but I resisted, then after few days a phone call (a female from delhi) told me to take drugs, again I resisted. Then due to repetitive calls from a girl who is talking to me nicely, I lost my control then I approached a person to take drugs. He told me to do what they say, to buy drugs. Then after 2 weeks, I left my home without informing my parents to buy drugs. My parents searched me, asked barber shop about me, and searched me in sewage thinking I fall down in the sewage. But then I came back to house with drugs in my pocket. Then my parents and my siblings asked me, ?where were you? We were searching you.? then I told them I was busy in helping a person. He wants someone to take care of his suitcase (cloth). He wants to go to home by bike so he needs someone to sit behind the back. So, I sat behind carrying his suitcase so that the suitcase should be ironed (to look good all the time). My parents then told me that in this case, 90% people falls in a trap of drug case. Better avoid next time or say no politely. I didn't gave semester 5 practical exams in december 2020 because my mind was stacked in drug matter. I was taking 2 type of drugs per day for 46 days, then that drug subconsciously tell me multiple times ? that thing which certain people told to me during brainwashing. This includes not to give assignments, therefore now also I cannot even submit pending assignments of semester 5 and 6. I don?t know what happened to me because that drug erased the memory after brainwashing. Because if someone asks what they told during brainwashing, then that part of memory is difficult to recall. 4) the brainwashed mind was in a such way that suicidal thoughts were coming, wants to complete the tasks of blue-whale game, without informing parents to get resign from college, then leave house and catch train, marry a girl of taliban community and then shadi ho jao. The brainwashed mind was telling that these all are spirituality and can reach to janna. 5) through whatsapp, I was then invited to syria for justice (actually it was terrorist) but they rejected me because I am indian and their thoughts about indian was brutal. 6) I became the victim of a terrorist mind-set (terrorist not in the form of suicide bomber but using coronavirus as a biological weapon) and I was responsible in spreading the coronavirus worldwide. I did it because the brainwashed mind told that after coronavirus, india will be great. Means just like before giving birth, pain occurs during labour. Then later I realized that in the terrorist group, there was many terrorist in the form of priest means terrorist were wearing priest clothes.