‘If you’re a long-time user, you can have physical withdrawal symptoms
– like cravings, irritability, sleeplessness, and less appetite – when you stop.’ One of the significant reactions of withdrawal is anxiety
. Some people react to anxiety by escalating anger over it, which is what I think you are doing. Two years ago you were still in your late teens and your nerves were still forming and the damage to them can be quite considerable, especially at that time. Now that you have stopped you must seek professional help from an addiction counselor and work out the reasons behind the addiction in the first place. There may be a lot of precipitating factors that predisposed you to the substance. A lot of study of your family history, your personal development from prenatal days and your upbringing will be very useful to deal with in treatment. You must start a good exercise regimen for your physical recovery on a daily basis. There are four issues which you need to work on with your counselor: the oral issue, the rigid value system, the genetic issue, and the script issue. You should attend NA meetings regularly and change a lot of lifestyle habits, friends, social habits, and learn healthy ways to be a happy person without the use of substances. Your spiritual soundness is also an area of work to focus on. In the NA group you will be able to work on the 12-step program, which is very exhaustive and very useful to your recovery. Mere abstinence from the substance is not enough to resolve
the addiction problem. Please go for a complete medical check up in relation to your addiction to identify any other damage that has to be attended to.