I met a psychiatrist and told the symptoms, he said that I am having social anxiety disorder and he give some medications to follow I followed the medication for sometime and gaveup medications very earlier and now I'm in same previous conditions the reason behind why I gave is because for me it is very heavy to follow the medications ,and some other reasons are follows 1) my confidence level is zero 2) when I see other people I feel they are much much better than me 3) I always see I want to be in relationship with a girl but it is not possible for me 4) when I was child I was talented in studies, sports etc but my talent is zero now 5) when I was in 8th std I slowly losing my talent, I was attracted to a girl but I was not able to talk with her and someone else got her in relationship and it is not for the first time for me, when I see lovers I got jealous of them ,lot more to say but in this page no place to describe.