I have daily used my finger for my bowel movement and manually try to get clean my colon for about 5 -6 years and now I have stop that shameful act from about 2 years. I have started this from about 8 standard and I do not know much about bad or good this at that time. But as I understand that this is unnatural I feel shameful and regretted but then I am not able to get bowel properly and I continued it for about 5-6 years. After that I am getting medication for the irregular bowel habits it help me lot but not completely. Even after that it is about 4 to 5 times to go daily for bowel without figure enema. I do not have that courage to say my cause of irregular bowel habit is that shameful act to any body including my gastrointestinal doctor to which I consult. Is there chances of permanent damage to my colon or rectum? How can I treat this situation. Please suggest some specialist doctors for medication.