I have a major problem when it comes to studying. I'm a pretty clever guy, I've always done well in exams but for these past two years my exam anxiety took a turn for the worse. Every time I start to prepare for my exams, everything just falls out of place. I can't study at all. I would have everything I need a good timetable, all my notes ready, plenty of time in advance and then it all goes downhill from there. Whenever I try to study I get awful panic attacks. First it starts with "okay I'm going to try my best! I want to study for 15 minutes and finish these pages! I can do this! but for some reason it turns into paralyzing fear. I try to read over my notes but my mind shuts down, I start to lose breath and then feel so immensely nauseous that I end up having to leave my room because it feels like I'm about to throw up. The panic attack keeps on getting worse and I end up walking around the entire house through all the rooms for hours just feeling like I'm unable to breathe and control my thoughts, not being aware that I'm actually doing this and that it's been hours. Then I start to feel incredibly incompetent and pathetic and cry, whilst still panicking. At the end of the day I would have spent hours without end panicking and crying, even to the point where I can't bring myself to go back to my room (where I study) to try again. The day would have gone to waste and the self-hatred begins to unleash, making it all worse. It's not that I don't want to study. I actually really want to do well and feel proud of myself. I don't understand why this happens every single time to the point where it's a few days before the exam and the panic attacks have become much worse. One more big problem is that I experience very much negative thoughts and vulgar thoughts even about god. Without any reason. The problem is that my parents think that this is all a silly act and that it stems from a lack of proper time management and procrastination. I have exams in 15 days and I have still enough time to ace them if I can bring myself to stop panicking. All this happens with high intensity when I am far away from my home i mean I lived in hostel in a city away from my home. But when I am home then intensity is reduced still I can't study I plan much but study a little. please help.