Sir, I am too serious about my career. I also take small small things into pressure. If anyone angry on me I felt that I am looser. I am not angry person. I can't raise my voice against wrong decisions of any one related to me. I am afraid of unknown people. I can't easily phase unknown people specifically if he/she is at higher position like managed or head or boss and also can't raise my voice if they are wrong. But in my mind I fill same on me and I thought on the topics which are related to my career again and again. I feel anxious sometime and sometime it feels that the attack will come on my heart. My mind never thought to go behind because I was average as student. But in my class all are toppers. They doing well in each and every work. But I can't study and work like them. So many time I insulted by my professors in my bachelor of engineering career. So I am very judgmental about my career and do not accept thing easolily and thinking about them again and again. I completed my 4 years of bachelor of engineering with lots of fear because I am average student. But I proved my self I will tolerate but not claim any issue against any bad thing it is my big Problem. I want to achieve highest education I wat be like other professionals in any way. I am vey anxious about it. But I am afraid of unknown people. I can't easily interact with them. I feel that he/she will avoid me and also angry on me. After that o feel like rejection. Due to this sometime I leave all my tension of study one side and go with my some naugty friends of my society. So that I feel happy. But it is for some time. Then I also think that this is not original happiness. original happiness is what I achieve in my life. Sometime I want to do nothing and want to sleep whole day but this is also very scary. I feel lik I have nothing to do. I thought that how others will remain home at homw whole day. I can't sit at home without any work. I always want to busy in work. But the work should be respective. But I am in this condition that I have no direction but I want to do it. I want to be person like shahrukh khan comedy and also successful. But in my life it is not possible. Because I always seem people who are stand first and also their behaviour is alway boss type. So I always feeling loose against them. I want to tell much more but I can't explain you. Now a days I started to hear brahmakumairs lectures. I am attracted towards their views about life. But same way I also feel that if I am not feel fear I can't do any work and only I will enjoy the tv and sleep. So acc to my view career and peace of mind both important. But I can't make mak it balanced. I am very judgmental. I also feel that others are bigger than me in any profession. So I always feel weak and fear with them and also give respect to them every time. Now I will stop. Please give me solutions of all my problems. I always feels difficulty from my childhood every time. I also feel that there is some mistake in my janam kundali may be. But provide me solution. So I will success and not become so judgmental.