Maam/sir whenever I feel someone humiliating (even the person might not have intended still) I feel like giving them same kind of feeling of humiliation I feel, the same manner, also if I feel someone is not reacting the way I react to them (like for instance a silly example ,if I follow someone on insta who knows us, but do not follow back, another example like on smile my other friend gets lot of comments ,likingness for his singing but I do not get the same level of acceptance from specially women it truly hurts, or if in a game of people if someone wins by hitting just exact which I wished he missed) all this brings sooo irritating or the biting kind of feeling in the inside, also if the person woman or man hurting my ego/complex or irritate or act rude against me or if someone whom I wish would answer in the way I expect but instead turns rude, I loose my temper ,i start abusing that person specially happens with girls and so have lost so many dear friends (girls mainly) and also most of the people whoever I have met specially when I go with my friends they do not feel like looking at me, they talk to my friend standing beside me, provided am becoming truly over conscious and also want to say one really bad thing that truly do not wanna say and that is whenever I talk to a woman my eye attention goes to below the neck part even though I do not like that. My sight is getting directed to that part though not direct eye contact. And I feel when I am conversing with someone I am not talking like a matured man, am not able to converse or communicate like my co friends. One last thing my facial appearance is also seeming to be rude and no body wants to approach. Its extremely depressing or heartbreaking when you expect to get equal treatment like other friends from all age groups especially women of same age group but they do not even care to notice if you even there around while talking to the cofriend standing beside you. Moreover I wished if I could give all the respect to my mother but her nature is so rude annoying and irritating often that I end up fighting and abusing, I want to be old good natured anirudh.