I am 52 years man terrible suffering from depression. My problem is from childhood. Last 25 years continuously taking medicine from renowned psychiatrist. But till I several time breakdown and again fight to live. What I myself judged or actual reason found that is I do not have the proper organ which naturally make people to love to theirs father, mother brother, wife child friend etc. Whatever I do that is by force which I can not tell to anybody Since childhood I can not make any friend I can not mix up with anybody. So I used to hide myself by reading book only. When I got service then it was saddest day for my life because now I have to enjoy and I have to stay with others. I was not much educated solution found suicide. Their also I failed. After few years I went for treatment. But discontinued. Last 25 years I am continuously taking medicine. By the period I left the job and kept engaged myself in such job that help me to stay good. From all the way tried to keep myself fit, I know again somehow I will be all right by changing high dose medicine. Again I will be attacked. Suggest me is there any operation in brain that can give me a normal life. I am terrible suffering in depression. I can not die, so suggest some operation not medicine not counselling.