I am going through lot of stress of lately. Since childhood I have developed a sense of being not good with relationships (may be because I was constantly reminded how blunt and mean I sound). I feel it has played bad for my present. I am getting married and I feel insecure. I am trying to keep everyone happy due to which I am not being able to smile. Stress has overloaded me. This is my second relationship. After my relation I had gone into depression and had got into bad alcohol habit. I was also under meds of tryptomer .25 mg which I honestly didn't take much due to fear of being addicted. I am not into alcohol but due to my marriage stress am unable to sleep. I have restyl .25 mg with me. I don't want to be addicted to it. But if I just take one (as I have not slept from last 2 weeks) will it give me any side effect. My husband is not letting me take it but because of my negativity and the constant unsecured feelings I am fighting a lot. I literally begged him to just give me 1 tab so that I can stop my thought process. Am I doing right or wrong.