I am a Hindu married woman of 38 years deeply in love with a married Muslim man. My husband came to know about my affair and asked me to leave the house and filed for divorce. I started living in a rented flat and started working in a call centre. My husband started mentally torturing and harassing my boyfriend. Soon my boyfriend started telling me to go back to my husband and wanted to break up with me. I was so devastated that I overdosed myself with antidepressants. As my husband kept on spying on me, he somehow guessed that I had committed suicide, he took me to the hospital where I was kept in the ICU. I was unconscious for 5 days. When I came back to my senses, my husband told me that he had informed my boyfriend about my suicide and since then he has switched off his mobile. Later I found out that my boyfriend had also deactivated his facebook account. I sent him many mails which he did not reply. I was heart broken and was unable to live for a single second without him. My husband was continuously telling me against him. So out of anger, frustration and desperation, I lodged a FIR against my boyfriend. The same day he was arrested. He was charged with rape, fraud, religion act and sent to jail. He wanted to talk to me in the lock up, I too wanted to talk to him but everything happened so fast and because of my husband's instructions to the police, I couldn't talk to him. After 2 days I went to meet him in the jail. He told me that he loves me and missing me. He switched off his phone because my husband threatened to put him in jail. My husband also asked him to block me from everywhere and cut all contacts from me. He further said that he went to the hospital everyday to enquire about my condition. He said that he will never go away again and will do whatever I say. I asked him to prepare an agreement where he will agree to marry me after my divorce. He accepted. Since then I go and meet him in jail every week. We both have signed the agreement and compromise. We forwarded his bail petition to the lower court where it was rejected. Now next week the bail plea will be submitted in the judge court. He has been going through hell in jail. I am feeling extremely guilty and traumatized. Meanwhile when my husband realized that my actual motive behind lodging case against him was not to punish him but to compromise and settle with him, he asked me to leave the house again and he said that once I leave the house, he will file divorce again but this time without any alimony. If I refuse then he will file adultery case against me and that will put my boyfriend in jail again. On the other hand, my boyfriend is telling me that he has deep financial crisis, so how will he maintain two families. I think after my boyfriend comes out of jail, I will commit suicide again. Please advice what to do?