I am feeling quite low. Before 2 weeks I was mildly addicted to alcohol and marijuana. Now I stopped it. Now everyday I am getting negative thoughts which I know is not useful. I tried to stop listening to music and talked to my parents. But I feel I am thinking mostly inwards which is not helping me understanding the situation. I had anger towards my father because he was an alcoholic and did not satisfy my emotional needs. But now I understand I should be responsible for my situation. I find it difficult to take my life decision and sometimes feel out of sorts. I try to repress my negative thoughts but they keep coming in. I read a lot of self help books hoping to find a solution. I am usually a silent person around people but I love talking if I am comfortable. I know my problems aren't serious but I need to be more present in a situation. PS: I am an engineer graduated from a top college in Kerala. Worked for 2 companies for 3 months each. Now have to decide my future.