I am curious and confused I secretly penetrate perfume tubes and toothbrushes and bananas into my rectum But I also have fantasies of having sex with girls especially fellow school mates I hate feeling gay and I want to stop but I can not I watch porn lots of them ,but never watch gay porn .gayporn does not arouse me Also I masturbates alot like everyday. I started with only masturbation but now both. I have started doing this gay staff 2007 I did it once till 2012. But it had gotten worse last year that I did it once every week except during very busy weeks like exam weeks. But now I do it like four times a week. I hate doing it .i realy hate it. I am not interested in having sex with guys. I always fantasize doing it with girls but after that this urge of gays comes over me. I do not picture myself a gay but I do not see how to stop it. I do gay staff when masturbating its like it helps me gate to orgasm fast. I am a christian and I hate myself for doing it. I have never spoken to anyone about it coz its immoral. I watch female orgasm porn match. Do you think I am gay? How do I stop it? I hate doing this coz it is eating up my confidence especially when initiating intimate relationship with girls.