I am 29 years old male, 6 months marry3d its love marriage with 1.5 years relationship my wife is very bold and open towards her friend especially opposite sex she use crack non veg jokes I never felt any bad about it as its todays generation let me tell you we have gap of 4 years. Am grow in traditional envoirment never touch any girl had emotional relationship before which never work out got dumped twice which makes me mentally weak den 2 years back I found her she proposed me we wer in good relation got married. At time of our first sexual encounter I came to know she was not virgin I asked her she got angried at first night I bleed due to foreskin tore as its my first time not she still I keep trust on her ok might be cycling of anything broke her hymen. Then I notice one guy remark her ao called very good friend she introduced me as very close friend I got gut feeling its something else more then friendship so I checked her conversation it found normal about life job and career never suspected them I just saw his notification on her whats app he was commenting her sexy hot and many pathetic comments I aksed her she said how hai I told her stay away from him I do not like this guy. She ignored I thought about it and said ok its der generation and these are comments on her beauty looks and figure its ok noy big deal. One day I got her facebook access I juat read her conversation very old 2 years back wid same best friend I came to know shes having physical wid him not twice thrice many times in her collage days also read comments like look for room and lodge which really shocked me it was not love at all its just lust and for fun I asked her and told her that its over she begged me not to tell any one its mistake please forgive give me one chance she do not have any kind of sexual relationship wid him after she met me we r just good friends I got very shocked ok every one has past so they keep all these things away from them after got married am not angry on her virginity lost am angry if I love her most she was happy wid me then why she still need him and how could I trust her that she do not have any relationship wid him its just friendship wala thing. We stay separate from my parents I came back wid my parents as I can not trust her any more 24x7 I think about this only can not able to concentration on my work became very aggressive had many fights out side as well as at home wid close friends this couldn't be digestive for me any more after 2-3 weeks I realize its not easy my parents to digest this for sake of future, I decided to forgive her as mistake she behave well delete all male contacts blocked his no in 2-3 weeks I felt ok still I did not trust her fully I really can not. Last week I found her g talk open with one more guy she had only physical relation ship dat devastating for me know feels so disgusting dat am I living with whore or something I hate her like anything now I do not want to touch her body I do not want her in my life but I couldn't do it as it will hurt my parents and I love them very much again she started same thing its my past please forgive me do not judge me on my past etc etc am yours only please do not tell my parents she behave very down crying alot again ask for chance to become good wife I really can not understand now how can I trust her. She broke the trust of her father how could be she will be faithful to me I think she is very much addicted to sex now we have good sex life what after if we had problem I can not trust her for ny life journey am getting sick now can not able to do anything feel to do kill my self but thats not solutions what should I do should I tell her parents but I do not think so after that anything will remain between us. What should I do please help should I file divorce she said if I file divorce she will kill herself as I know she loves me alot kind of things she did for me in past 2 years relationship but I can not trust her for her nature towards opposite sex its too much open. Please help psychiatrist help required am sick now do not know what am up to.