I feel like subside. I am don't find the happiness around me the why it was before. My parents always want me to do as they want and I do even if it means to put my own feelings away, but I also want to live my life in my own way. I don't wanna leave them and I can't live like this with them. Not just that because I am not good in studies I get spoiled alot. Now day I feel happy with only my girlfriend as she understands me. I had once made my mind that I am gonna subside and I have even wrote a subside letter but my girlfriend rad the letter before I do something stupid and stopped me. My family also don't like the girl as she is my choice they want me to do a arrange marriage even when they them self has done an love marriage. I don't know what to do. I am really confused.