I am 42 year old my sun is 13 years old after it been 12 year there is no sexual activity between my husband n me he has not take any initiative he is a good guy but can not understands my need .since three years I had dated with one guy I know it's wrong .that person meet me only if he feel horny my need is not only about sex .i need a romance which I miss in my life my brain told me do not meet that person but my mind is not allow me to do the same. I have a 2 option .do meet with my condition or do not not meet that person .i understand every thing but still I am not in a position to make a decision. I am a housewife .not able to spend money for psychologist so I am here .i do meditation yoga I tried to close with my husband nothing worked no hard feeling with my husband but I am missing something. Sometimes.