I wake up in the morning around 5 AM and go about my chores for going to the office, including making my black coffee, half an hour's exercise, shave and bath. Between 5 & 7 AM I am terribly depressed every day and do not want to go to the office. I long for the nights and I hit the bed at around 10 PM and generally, I sleep well. Once in a week/10 days, I have to pop in half Calmpose. I consume hard drinks (a quarter bottle, i.e. 3-4 pegs) atleast two times in a week. Once I reach the office, I am completely engrossed in my work, which is mostly on the computer. I am about 56 years of age. My boss in office is not an easy person to work and the organization is also not a good one which, in fact, is the impression of many of my colleagues, both about the office and the boss. But we can't leave as we have a couple of years left. As for me, personally, I was divorced about 15 years and am not in touch with my former wife and only daughter. I have not remarried and am living with my elder brother and his family and our mother. Saturdays and Sundays are holidays and I am mostly at home and seldom go out. Please advise if I am in some kind of a depression?