I am a 21 years old female and I have been diagnosed with BPD. Well I am not self harming or suicidal all the time but I tend to get easily affected but the outer environment and feel like running away from this world. I feel as if there are two dominant character living inside me, one is filled with wisdom which guides me every now and then and then the other makes me do things I am not supposed to do. I did not take the medicines because I felt I would be fine in coming days but now I am constantly experiencing a headache in the left brain and I feel very tired without even doing anything. I was prescribed serlift-50 and zenoxa-150 by my psychiatrist. The medicines had a lot of side effects when I had them the first day and so I stopped. What exactly am I suffering from?