Dear user. Thanks for the question. I can understand. You are suffering from SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER
. Social anxiety
disorder is a chronic mental health condition in which social interactions cause irrational anxiety. For people with social anxiety disorder, everyday social interactions cause irrational anxiety, fear
, self-consciousness and embarrassment. Symptoms may include excessive fear of situations in which one may be judged, worry about embarrassment or humiliation or concern about offending someone. Talk therapy or psychotherapy
and antidepressants can help increase confidence and improve ability to interact with others. I suggest online psychotherapy and counseling. Take care.