Male 26 yrs, having fear that no one is with me although I live with my joint family of 11 members (including me). Say if I divert my mind in some work then its ok but post completion of that event the same thought of loneliness is on my mind and which makes me cry sometimes. Don't have much friends n which I have are busy in their own lives which is normal. Sometimes I feel like to kill myself but on the other hand I have my family too, also I am newly married but my wife doesn't feel to talk too much or express, she only keep finding demerits in others as she thinks she is so smart n other are idiot. 6 months ago I got married n We have hardly lived 60 days together and if bifurcate the days we had lived together then calculation would be 60 days = 50 days of fighting + 10 days normal (may be). No doubt I am trying my best in this relationship but her words are THE MARRIAGE WAS DONE JUST BECAUSE HER FAMILY HAD FORCED HER. I am emotional guy which means WORDS HIT ME HARDER THEN PUNCHES. Don't know how to get rid of tension. Even I had word with my family in this regards but all of them says it will take sometime to get all issues resolved. My wife is a very good liar, at the time of our marriage she said there was minor injury in her waist but on our wedding night she told me that she is suffering from Pott's Spine/ Bone TB. Although she had recovered alot from that time but if I ask something from her she says I DON'T REMEMBER even she forget what had happen 2-3 days back and take cover and says MAY BE MEMORY IS GETTING WEAK DUE TO THE MEDICINES OF BONE TB. Even after all this I am ready to accept her but she is very careless also had word with her in this regards and she said WE CAN SEPARATE IF YOU WANT BUT I WILL NOT GO MY HOME OR I WILL SUICIDE OR WILL GO SOME ANONYMOUS PLACE WHERE NOBODY WILL KNOWS ME. She's 23 and we both are from different regions I am from delhi and she is from UP but our family background are from same caste and religion, she is educated but I am still not able to trace out why this is happening to me. Usually I talk too much but with limited people but everyone is busy in their own life which good but I need some hope of light for my life. Please suggest me something.