I am a teenager and belong to a middle class family I am topper since my childhood and always score 1st position in class but Since last year my mind has become very uncontrollable you cannot even imagine the extent my mind goes in thinking rubbish. Last year my parents sent me to a reputed institution with high fee in a city for higher education although we took loan for that. I want to make my parents all dreams to come true and I want to work very hard for my better future but my mind is a big restriction .my present condition is that I stand last in my class many a times fail in exams too! And This is biggest embracement for me .my studies are very deeply affected by all these and I never remember whatever I study. Sometimes I think to just leave and run away very far. Thoughts like saying vulgar words even to god .family members and also thoughts of brutality. Or thoughts like everything seems to be worthless and I think to quit life and unrealistic thoughts have become common and come any time and many time a day .the quality of my thoughts has drastically worsened. Also my mind opposes to study or learn. please help me I wanna get rid of all these. please help faster.