This is too much… I have been diagnosed with the following mental disorders by psychiatrists from bangalore. 1) I am having 2 mood disorders (major affective depressive disorder, single episode and bipolar 1 disorder, most recent episode) 2) I am having psychotic disorder (grandiose delusional disorder) 3) I am having obsessive compulsive disorder (mild trichotillomania) 4) I am having adjustment disorder with mixed anxiety and depressed mood. 5) I am having personality disorder (moderate cluster b traits, schizotypal personality disorder, premorbid personality disorder) 6) I am having anxiety disorder in conditions classified elsewhere. From december 2020 to june 2021. I had undergone 10 psychotherapy sessions (via phone). Meanwhile, I also contacted various suicide prevention helplines via gmail and phone. And as per the instructions given by psychiatrist. I had completed the medications ,[ antidepressant (escitalopram) and antipsychotic (olanzapine) ] treatment for 46 days (january 2, 2021 to february 18, 2021). And then I stopped the medications by the permission of the psychiatrist. And then the psychiatrist told me to do cbt therapy. I completed 8 weeks of cbt (cognitive behavioural therapy) sessions on 20th may 2021. But the doctor said medications cannot alter the behaviour and even lots of cognitive behavioural therapy sessions will not give the desired result. You only tell…then why is the doctor told to start medications and therapy if they only are saying afterwards that there is no approved cure for the above mental disorders? Why did they play with my life so politely? Then the clinical psychologist from nimhans told me to watch comedy shows like tom and jerry to eliminate negative/suicidal thoughts. Then for almost 1 week I used to watch tom and jerry and my life was smooth….then I came across to the last emotional episode of tom and jerry in which both of them commits suicide by sitting down in the middle of railway track because of love-failure. Their love-interest married to someone else. So, now should I avoid watching tom and jerry for safety reasons? And, the clinical psychologist also advised me not to do meditation right now because…i think she may have told me because if I get obsessed with meditation then I might perform mahāsamādhi yoga. It’s a natural process where people have left their body consciously. It is the peak of yoga.