I am not able to judge myself what I am going through. I can't stop thoughts racing all over in my mind specially for my life. I become optimism as well as pessimism at the same time. I usually tend to behave in front of everyone like everything is ok but unfortunately whenever I stay alone I can't stop crying pathetically and even sometimes laugh at the jokes on which no one even gives reaction and again I am the only one who become like a foolish person ever. I become so much talkative and want to discuss on any topic with anyone to stay out of stress but no one is able to get awkward behaviour. I had sleepless nights from last three years but 2016 was worst of all. Effects on my health are ridiculous. I don't know how but whenever I got anxiety attacks I guess or whenever I cried a lot feeling lost and without any hope I suffered from constipation a lot. I start drinking excessive of water or eating a lot whenever facing any kind of fear. This year due to constipation and my other health effects like feeling tired always or oversleeping the attendance also became very less. Even I have a very bad habit of biting skin at the side of the nails while thinking curiously about some or the other thing or being nervous at most of the times and specially whenever I study. I want to get rid of all this nonsense. Cannot lead my life like this further anymore.