Actually i. Don't know exactly what happening with me but I can say that I have no reason to smile nd to be happy in life. All the time I feel hopeless, helpless, guilty. Or aggression bhut hota h or sometimes etna ho jada h ki I tried to hurt my self by cutting my hand nd other things which hurt me. Most of the time I think yo commit suicide .don't want to live. Sometimes I like I want somebody to be with me but after next moment I want nobody want to be alone. That anxiety attacks, fairness, laziness, negative thoughts all the time. Can't think what is gud or bad. Want to kill myself. Sometimes I be like don't want to talk to anybody. I just be silent. So many things in my which I can't express also what's going inside me. That frustration, irritation, helplessness.