I have been noticing that I feel blue a lot. I hardly ever feel happy. I'm a student entering final year and will be looking for jobs and I'm worried this may affect me badly. I'm losing interest in pretty much everything that I loved to do before, have no hobbies as of now and want to be alone most of the time. Other than that, I also feel lonely sometimes but do not like opening up to anyone and sound like a wimp. I try distracting myself but it feels very temporary. I'm low on self esteem and irritable/sleepy/disoriented most of the time. All this is becoming overbearing and I do not wish to consult anyone whatsoever since I cannot afford to consult someone right now. I hear people telling me to be "happy" and that I should be meditating and stuff but I'm just not interested, infact it pisses me off even more. Please advise. Thank you.