I am a 30 years old married women and having 4 yrs old son. From some time I feel that I had married since childhood and due to poverty of that guy my father has not accepted him. Beside this he loves me more than my current husband. I feel that he had sex (rape) with me in 2002 and give emergency conctactive pill. But as per internet i-pill launch in market nearly 2006. Also I think that my hymen has ruptured by that guy but my husband says that (also I know) he has ruptured my hymen after my marriage (as I feel pain & also bleeding). I feel very guilty always. I feel that older guy is waiting for me and till date he is not married. I am totally confused. Also I don? t want to sex with my current husband. (i know he loves me very much). What I feel that is false but my heart not accept that. Always I am thinking of that man. Please help me