I was a kind of very bright student with utmost focus and concentration, achieving whatever I want, feeling proud, never letting anyone cross the boundaries I have set for them and disrespect/billy or insult me. Knowledge was my power and doing a good work was my motivation but I have got my standards lowered, had been insulted, betrayed and let people cross their boundaries. I have lost my mental piece and self integrity, self confidence, morale and self esteem. The past keeps on haunting me, I keep on regretting and over thinking and this makes my addiction to porn still worse. I used to command others, be a man of integrity and my standards but have done the work below my standards, allowed others to bully and faced insults. A lot of dissatisfaction, regret and over thinking along with all above I had been suffering from porn addiction but not sure if these scenarios are escalating my addiction or these scenarios are happening due my addiction.