Hello doctor. Ok before this I was not comfortable. But I have to do it. Let me speak in hindi. Its my Mother tongue. Before this I have asked you about it but now I want to reveal everything. I am going through ocd .plz help me. I am 17 years old girl .2 saal hogaye mein relagious ocd se jari. Ye sab start hua 2 saal pehle. Ganpati ke waqt humare yaha mahalakshmi bethti hain aur sabka manna hai ki wo bht strict hain. Tabhi us din mere man mein ek thought aya ki mein unke chehre ko laat maru .aur tabhi maine maafi mangi. Aur uske turant baad maine maafi mangi. Lekin 2 din baad mere chehre pe bht sare white patches aagye. To my mom said tune koi galat kiya hoga. Tabhi maine maafi mangi. Uske 1 month baad phir se ye thought aye aur wo kaha ke kaha pohoch gaye. Matlab sab bhagwan ki gandi sexual images. And unke uppar thukna nd all ye thoughts ane lage aur mein unko uske baad maafi mangne lagi. "mahalkshmi mata, ganpati bappa, he deva, he sai baba, he tuljabhavani mata, krishna deva, he hanuman deva, he mahadeva, he shani deva, gajanan deva datta guru please mala maaf kraa" aisa mera routine bangaya .aur unhone mere andar ghar bana diya. Aur last 6 months mein har bhagwan ke samnejake 100 bar seatups lagati thi roja ka. Khud ko marti thi. Bahut guilty lagta hai. Aur 3 months se mujhe lagra ke mere dad mar jayenge agar maine pray nhi kiya to. Unko bimari ho jayegi. Unki mare hue thoughts mujhe har waqt sata rahe hai mein roj raatko roti hoon. Mein roj bhagwan ko mafi mangne ko tayar hoon but m not ready to lose my loved ones. And every second I think bad about god nd I asked him for forgiveness .i do not know what to do .now I have become so much obsessed with this thought. And I pray every second to got atleast for 5 years save my dad. Whenever I got image that I have lost him I cry like hell. Because of this type of thoughts will god punish me? Will my parents die because of such thoughts? Please explain me in brief. Please Help me.