Hello I am feeling so alone. I am behaving so weird. I can't really tell anyone what I am doing to myself. I hate everything. I tried suicide also. I am getting mad. Daily I am hurting myself, I am cutting my hand with blade, beating myself. I visited doctor also he gave me some medicine that are scared 200, Etizolam,tryptomer, and Ativan but I am not able to cure myself. These medicine are also not working. I am always thinking about suicide. I don't know why. I am always feeling sad and alone. Everything is burden, life is like burden on me. I am doing things but I don't have reason and even I don't know why I am doing. Because of my this attitude my mam is also tensed. I don't want to tensed him. I failed in my life. I am feeling that everything and my life is meaningless. I hate my mom dad so much. They don't like me or love me. I am not able to tolerate home violence which I am seeing from 17 years. I am 17 years old girl.