I watch porn from last 13 years and do masturbation now when I try to do images of my known female. Members come in mind due to my disease for example when I watch porn images of my daughter my wife my wife mother my brother kids come in my mind my question is I want to search a job so I can divate my mind but thoughts come tht if I search a job today my all female members will punish me for thing about them sexually on same day I search a job so my question is for what reason they will punish me first for thinking about sexually or secondly getting a job on same day I think about them sexually and do I really have done masturbation to them and last thoughts come tht if I get a job I will get a job for thinking about them sexually.