I am in a committed relationship with an amazing guy who really loves and respects me. I really love him too. But on a trip recently, I had physical relations with another guy. I fell in love with him. I really miss him and I am not able to be the same with my boyfriend as well. I love both of them but I know it will never go any further with that other guy. But the both of us developed a very deep emotional bond and we want to stay really good friends but I am not able to get him out of my mind. I want to be honest to my boyfriend but I know he will never be able to forgive me and will leave me. I want to be with him. Please help me.