Hi I am a 25 years old female, I was in a very bad pain I had panic attacks twice and all but I never gave up my confidence, (my grandma has passed away on sept 1st 2016 by suiciding at age of 76 cause of depression, I was pretty normal after that for a month, I had a small argument with my husband and I told him in a fight simply you make depressed all the time and word got stuck in my mind and I started thinking that am I depressed and will I suicide and I started comparing the symptoms she faced before death that even I have such and even I may do so. That things got me panic attacks) later I stood strong and and dared to keep thinking about whats bothering me all the time and started making the image of me suiciding or death of mine when I close my eyes and slowly fear is gone, I mean I do not panic of it anymore, then I had been to meditation classes which made me ease that death is jus a normal part of life and retardation belief made me strong. Now I go for zumba dance classes which is so interesting for me. I do not want to be on medicines anyway, only thing is I started training my subconscious mind too. That no matter I got to be happy and strong. But still I get a sudden thought do not do this you ll die anyway. But I never stopped from doing it. I fight with it showing I will do it. I keep getting a thought why all this better to die when we ll born again. But again I keep telling my self no I had been gifted this life I can not waste it. I keep telling myself never I should suicide no matter what. Thats so irritating for me. And will this thoughts be with me forever? M worried will I get back this anxiety again? Or more do I need any specific NLP or hypnosis to get back to original me? I feel like I should erase all the things from my mind from past 3 months what I was facing and be original me back? Is there any such treatment. I do all my regular activities attending parties and all but I feel that am not enjoying myself coz of something thought bothers me in between, but I was worst before only used to think abt death 24 hrs as of now I guess I hardly think 10 to 15 times a day which will give a throat ache at times and then I get to work and m normal again? Is it a must I need medicines now for this or counselling would help. And please tell me how the result would be in both ways? I may sound stupid but I want that to happen. Cause at times am very happy but such sudden thoughts make me feel worse coz thats not me. Am not a loser.
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Dear lybrate-user, No, you are not a loser. I would rather say that you are very very Brave to overcome the impulse of unconscious mind. It is also brave to train your subconscious mind and redirect it to channelize your latent energies to dance and meditation. Keep doing both. For the recurrent thought pattern, yes hypnosis can help you. You can have a online hypnosis session if you wish to with me. A lot of things can handled by it. You can contact me on Lybrate private consultation for hypnosis session. NLP is for immediate short term results to tackle the anxiety or panic. Medication will not address the recurrent though pattern. So in opinion hypnosis and training in self hypnosis will help you a great deal.
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