I am working with psu company. Recently I have got transfer to posting near to my hometown. Actually I am away from my home since last 8 yrs, now it is really impossible for me to stay with them. Initially I was in different working environment, & now the job profile is of continuous travelling and dealing with customers, which is not of my type, still I cannot refuse to do so. I feel very depressed as here since it is metrocity, all other colleagues are from very high profile and they are very good in communications, which I am not. They don't talk freely with me and stay away from me. I feel very insecure and I feel I am not as talented as them. Also I am in love with a person which is of different religion, who stays at my previous workplace, now my parents are forcing me to marry with different fellow, and he is totally different from me. I dont like him at all. But only for my parents I agreed to marry with him. But all these changes are not digestible to me. And I am feeling very lonely, very insecure as well as depressed. Sometimes I feel I should suicide. Please guide me what to do?