Hi. I'm a 21 year old female from Kolkata. I have a family and lots of friends. But I feel really underappreciated. There is a lot of talks outside about hiw we shouldn't expect and be selfless and everything. But it all seems very superficial to me. Few years back i was like a goat. I never complained to anyone about anything i felt. I truly used to believe that if I keep on striving for recognition in front of my parents , if i be there for my friends , everything will be ok. Off late i have absorbed the fact that they weren't my true friends, i have stopped compromising for those 'friends' and instead made acquaintances with new people. But unfortunately i cannot do that with my family. I feel really tied down. There is a lot of complicated situation here like immature and biased mother and an angry and biased father . Being the middle child, i feel like my family attaches no calue to me whatsoever. My father has always has an unashamed inclination towards my sister and my mother towards my brother. I have always don't everything in my power to please them, to impress them, to get them to think about me. But it never happens. I feel like I'm draining my energies. And it's affecting my behaviour pattern. I'm very easily irritated and I hate to be at home . I feel like getting lost in oblivion because I feel worthless and I feel like I don't belong to anyone. I was betrayed in friendship by someone i called my bff. And that incident though 2 years old Stoll feels like a knife cutting through me. I need help . I want to straighten my thoughts out and focus on what's important in my life , I have major exams in a matter of two months. I feel really helpless, stuck in a spiral that's heading lower and lower.