I?m 20 year old, female. I don?t know how do I explain what I feel. It?s getting hard day by day for me. I feel so empty at one point of time and I feel all the worst thing on earth is only on me. I really don?t want to stay here when I live. I feel like running away, away from everyone here. I don?t want to see the faces of people I keep seeing everyday be it my parents, friends or family. I want to go far away to a place where no one knows me I want to restart my life all over again and alone. I fed up everything. I want it to stop. I don?t know what exactly I want to stop but I want it stop. I tried to cope up with myself by many ways like watching videos, talking to a friend, going out everyday, keeping myself busy but it just works for that point of time and I get back to the same feeling everyday, every single day. My parents don?t understand what I want. My friends tried telling my mother that I need to get counselling but my mother does?t understand one bit. I feel life?s getting hard on me. It chokes me. There is this weight on chest that I get every time I start thinking about myself and my life which I?m not able to remove. Even now I don?t know why can not hold my tears it?s just running down when I think how caged I feel right now. I can?t sleep at all, I have lost the power to sleep, I hardly sleep for 5-6 hours everyday. I?m really done with everything. I can?t anymore. This is the first time ever I am to talking about it to an expert. These days my mom thought it?s waste of time and I that?s why I kept it to myself. But I?m not able to anymore. I have never failed in an challenges the life throws at me and now I don?t want to fail at my LIFE too. I want to live. I hope you understand how truly I?m opening up to you and trusting you. I hopeful help me to get through it as soon as possible. I trust you.