Hello! My name is Harsh. I'm a seventeen years old boy. Let me mention my problems. It all started three years ago, I had a severe panic attack. At that time I had no clue what it was so I panicked really bad and thought I was gonna have a heart attack. I went to a hospital as it was really severe. After a few days anxiety attacks became normal to me and I used to have them every night. I got used to them and then all of a sudden one day I realized that I don't see the world like I used to. The world seemed unreal and I started having severe problems with my concentration and memory. When the feeling of derealisation first started I lost control and thought I was going crazy. Everyone told me I was going nuts and it was just my belief. With time I got into drugs and smoking but after three months I completely left it but the withdrawal effects were severe and made me even more depressed. It has always been difficult and my grades has been so down that I don't believe I will graduate from senior high school next year. The world seems unreal and I don't feel emotionally connected to people as I don't remember anything about myself. I do remember but at the same time I don't have visual memories. I don't enjoy anything and nothing makes me happy nomore.