Hi doctors. I'm a 26 year old married woman having 1.7 years old son. I'm not at all happy with my marriage. we can never understand each other. He is so dominating that I have forgot my existence. Nothing can happen how I think or want. Everything has to happen his way otherwise he will start scolding or abuse. Whenever we go out with people. I feel so happy to see other people. I start talking, laughing and all. He then insults me as he doesn't like me talking. At home I stay quiet and listens to him and lives my every single second the way he wants. I'm so frustrated with this life that sometimes I get suicidal thoughts. But I love my child alot so think that it's the worst thing I can ever think of. His family is not at all supportive and my parents are also like the ones I can share with them. All friends are gone after marriage. There is no one in life. Started with the diary writing but still the thoughts don't go away. I feel very lonely.