I have been majorly dealing with obsessive unwelcoming thoughts for as long as I could remember. It manifested in the form of different themes through the years. Whenever I obese it takes up 90% of my waking hours and gets me into a state of panic and anxiety. After a while, I turn numb and stop fighting the thoughts. There are certain instances where I badly needed the support of a family member/therapist but I haven't opened up about it to anyone in fear of embarrassment. And my current obsession is taking a toll on my health and relationship. And I've been through various websites and forums looking for a cure. And that's when I stumbled across obsessive compulsive disorder. Everything I had been experiencing since I was a small kid, had been jotted down in the name of pure O ocd disorder (Counting obsession involving lucky and unlucky numbers when I was in primary school ; obsessions involving phobias - fear of losing emotions, fear of going insane ; Sensorimotor obsession involving breathing ; Religious intrusive thoughts while praying - my opposite wishes pop up in my mind when I pray and causing panic ; Relationship focused obsession ). All of these themes have ruled a decent period of my living and it keeps shifting to a new subject, anything that's close to my heart. I'm tired of fighting these thoughts and at times I get numb and detached for days together and there are days when I just cry it all out. Loss of appetite also occurs. And most days I live in my head. Like I analyse and fight with these thoughts right from the moment I wake up, till I go to bed. This really is having a negative impact on my day to day activities. And it feels like these obsessions define me and I don't have a separate identity, since I've been this way for years together (gotten more evident in the last ten years). I need an expert to look at into it and suggest if ocd might the case. So that I can look for treatment options. Kindly advise. Thank you.