Its all about not sexuality issue. During my childhood I was surrounded by sisters as no boy was there in family except me, so they use to nourish me like girls like sometimes paint my nails, drap a cloth around me like a saree. As I didn't know anything about it, slowly I grew up n I started liking all this n slowly slowly I went to cross dressing. I use to play with my sisters by crapping saree n like everything like girls. I never played cricket and other sports with boys. I use to play badminton only but very less. Overall very less physical activities. I started dancing like girls and when I grew up everyone started teasing me by calling a girl. Everyone use to treat me like a girl n always use to say that you should be girl rather than a boy .but at the same time there was a girl in my class about whom I use to have sexy thoughts like bathing with her and rubbing her back only up to this as I didn't know about sex. Than I went to my high school there always my classmates teased me that I should be a girl not a boy, some use to call me cause behind my back n some boys like to kiss my cheeks ,but rather than that they were good friends of mine. Many girls finds me trustworthy person they use to share their bad secrets with me but also at the end told me that "talking to you never feels like we are talking to boy always feels like one of our girl friend" .I respect girls a lot and never had bad thoughts in my mind about them. Due to all this I have a fear to get socialise like on Feb, WhatsApp,install. I don't make ids on these. I just have WhatsApp account and even on that I fright off to put my own do. Yesterday I talked to one of my female friend and at last she she told me you always make me comfortable like any girl to whom I can speak anything. Some times I like girls and sometime I like boys ,sometime I masturbate thinking of girls and sometimes by thinking boys. But family friends and society people always teased me. I over the years I left cressdressing very strongly ,I determined that I'll never do this again n m successful in it. But society people and family friends always teased me with my childhood activities. I am dealing with depression due to society and other people since my childhood. I always have fear of getting socialise. Now day bby day my contacts are reducing. I am studying medicine n unable to cop with huge study stress with all these distractions. I as m in new class I like a girl but unable to tell her. And also I have a little fear or shyness to talk with girls. I don't understand if anyhow I come I a relationship what will I talk to my partner. I always think and try to propose that girl but at last I stuck to point what will I talk to her .I never played and did physical activities like other boys. But due thought that what people will say n they will make fun of mine I stop myself. I get depress so much by all this. I always think that one day I'll be able to hit the ground ,gym, and other physical activities like boys .but all in vain. I was always teased being like girlish. N now I starteactivities. All due to this I have a fear of being married but I really want to be married but all I want to get rid of this tease if any day I reach to marriage age than how will I manage. I am very shy off due to my childhood activities m I really homosexual or I have a fear of being homosexual. I have wet dreams sometimes about girls but most of the time I watch gay porn and also straight porn simultaneously. I love my family and want to achieve so many things in my life but these fears stop me all time. I wanna ask you if guy don't do physical activities it means he is gay all due to depression I think my height remained 5'5" only n never GRE more. M 20 years old now but till now I don't see maturity symptoms in me n also my hands and feet are still soft n body also like a teenage boy there is no muscularity n masculinity in my body due to which they appear like girls. So I wanna ask you if all this happens due to my childhood nortouring. Like I was grow between girls. What is my sexuality n wife m? M I gay or straight or bisexual?