I see Dead People. Cannot trust people, the real people. 24 year, 6 feet. I have extreme mood swings in which I either masturbate repeatedly or eat like hell or empty my wallet out. Unmarried.Severe difficulty in understanding the human World and how it works. Often keep to myself. But it is hard and very difficult to be all alone and do all the work. It has been 3 years since I have felt like this. No family history of mental illness from the mom side and not know of dad side. Feels like It is not my world. Feels like I don't belong here. Sometimes I wish I was born a tree. Not a human. Cannot leave my mom. If she dies I die. Cannot leave her at all. My brother and my mom are the only reason I am alive. Cannot understand this. Had some suicidal thoughts too. Only due to the fact of non belongingness. Attempted 9 times. But couldn't do it. Couldn't see the point. It is hard to live in this world. I am not even sure it is a world. For all I know it could be a dream. Help.