I had intercourse for the first time with my partner since I was a virgin we couldn't perform actual intercourse as the opening of my anal and vagina was very small. The intercourse was painful as I was not easily aroused sexually and there was dryness in my vagina and anal area though we applied chocolate syrup but it didn't helped much and I feel the outer skin of my anal ruptured and was bleeding a bit. Also I started farting after anal sex which made me more embarrassed and I felt so low that I never want to have sex again ever in my life. I am feeling so low depressed and embarrassed and still I am a virgin as the vagina and anal has not yet opened to its fullest. Please advise how can I regain my confidence as I was very conscious about my physique while having sex and I am feeling so demotivated and depressed.